Shitty day. Had to put one of my guinea pigs to sleep today. Euthanasia sucks because you are technically killing your pet, and actually have to convince yourself you’re doing the right thing. What sucks even more is your pet’s last minutes are spent in fear, in an unknown bright room with random people doing things to it. Doing it at home is highly recommended.
The fox from the Little Prince came to mind: you become attached to what you tame. To other people he would be no different from a random squirrel. But to me he was Houdini, with a personality that made him “him”, and a history of caring and interaction. Rest in peace buddy.